Dougy Mak’s Blog

I just deactivated my facebook, AGAIN, because I started wasting too much time on it, AGAIN. 1 week, let’s see my grades go up.

This last month has been so interesting. I must say, it feels so much longer because so much has happened. well, got to go to school now, bye!

It’s been more than half an hour and I still can’t believe what happened! YES!! BEST highlight of my life so far in 2009. <3

Who’s likes tobe a back up? No one, and I’m not a back up player. I play starting or don’t play at all. Sometimes people don’t realize the potential in someone, and when they finally do, it’s too late. There are a few ways to reach that result where one realizes/sees the potential that another may hold, but there’s only ONE way to reach that destination that would have that someone to stay and not go away. Going deeper into this and using the player analogy, if you end up seeing the potential in someone because the star player has left, then it’s a slap in the face to that someone. However, if you end up seeing the potential in that someone while the star player is around, then it means a lot more. To me, it means that they have come to acknowledge you on their own. It’s like saying, I see that you may be better than our current star player and, to me, that saids I have confidence in you, you are better, and much more. But, in the other situation where your potential is only realized after the departure of the star player… It’s a total slap in the face! That’s like saying “Oh FAWK, my star player left, and I need a replacement… I must pick the best player I have available.” No that shit doesn’t cut it, that’s a slap in the face. No one likes that garbage.

I posted earlier that I pulled an all nighter, well technically I slept for 1 hour, so it isnt’ exactly an all nighter. Eitherway, I AM SO TIRED. I was at the hospital since like 12PM and it’s 8PM now. I was sitting in the waiting room for a while and fell asleep in the most uncomfortable position. I was like leaning my body over the arm rest while my elbow was standing ontop of my back pack supporting my head. I felt like I was on an airplane or something. Anyways, I took out my laptop and started looking at some youtube videos of waxing hair and then some anime, and then i moved to the cafeteria and got on ventrilo with some buddies. Eventually, I went to Japantown to get some hair wax, since I used up the last bit this morning, and I also got a bite to eat. Well, I arrived back at the hospital at like what… 6 something PM and fell asleep while watching anime at the cafeteria. Another uncomfortable position. The tables were kind of dirty, and there were no napkins openly available, so I kind of had to put my arm at the edge of the table where it was the most clean and then layed my face on my arm and took a nap. Oh and might I mention, the whole day, when I was trying to sleep, I had to avoid positions that can possibly mess up my hair, so it was PRETTY freaking uncomfortable. Anyways, I went upstairs back to the waiting room at like ~7:45pm and a nurse came in and called for me. My mom seems to be in a good condition. Very positive, which is good. I plugged her into my ipod, and she fell asleep. She has to stay here for a few hours before checking to see if she can go home tonight or not. What an experience… The wait was not as long as I anticipated, but yeahh. I am proud of my mother for handling this so strongly and positively, which is a great way to keep yourself, and the people around you, stress free. I am proud of myself for helping her scratch her nose, haha. No, but I felt I’ve matured to be a little more patient and a little more understanding. As conceited as that may sound, you must remember that this is MY BLOG, and it consists of MY THOUGHTS. Wellssss, I post back later.

1 hour of sleep is SO GREAT! YEAHHH!!!

It’s like 3:40 am RIGHT NOW. I finished a little project and it’s prepared for Saturday! YEAHH! I hope she likes it. I still have an essay to do, but seriously, I hate essays that make you choose one side of the arguement and then you are expected to argue that point. I feel so confined and unable to expand on those type of essays. FURTHERMORE, quick update about my life. My mother is going through surgury tomorrow, actually, in ~8-9 hours- it’s going to be a tough day tomorrow, i mean, today. I’ve been like so happy lately, well obviously not happy about my mom’s current situation, but other than that, I ‘ve been so happy lately because of someone.  YATAHHHH! I am going to pull an all night tonight, ok bye I gotta do my essay.

A train is like a person, and the way the train works is like the way a  person’s life works. Every train has a different set of tracks, and every track leads to a different place. One thing, in common, that all tracks consist of is… you will always run into a fork where you would have to decide which is the best path to take to get to where you want. Unsurprisingly there are probably more trains than paths in this world, and many trains uses the same set of tracks (or similar, at the least) as another train has.  There are trains where you would always meet again in the road ahead, and there are special trains that will only pass by once. And when a special train passes by, sometimes we miss the special train because we are looking elsewhere.  Trains can also break down and it would take time to fix, but no matter how long it takes, the train will eventually start moving forward again.

Well, I don’t feel like finishing this, and I have to do homework anyways! THANKS FOR READING!

My mother has been going through chemo therapy for almost half a year now. Well she recently finished the therapy about a month ago, and she will be undergoing surgury this Friday. Since my mother will require much needed attention, it will be very stressful for me to balance that into my life on top of school, and my social life. This certainly is not a problem that I can’t tackle, but it will be something tough to tackle. My planned solution is to bust out my planner, again, and I would seriously have to plan out my schedule and use my time wisely instead of wasting time. That’s it for now, I gotta study, ciao!

Damn MAN! I’ve been letting myself go with the junk food lately, and getting like no sleep. I think it’s time to set my goal to sleep at 10PM for the next month to fix this breakout. Starting tomorrow night!